I really need some help.

Ok, I've been dealing with a lot here lately and I'm really struggling. A couple weeks ago my grandmother, who has always been one I could count on to be there for me had a sudden stroke, she ended up in the hospital brain dead, and after three days they took her off life support. Her funeral was just a couple days later, as my family was pulling out of the church parking lot from her funeral we got a call informing us that my great uncle, who had been in the hospital on and off for a while now, had just passed away.

While dealing with all these things I had begun to start struggling with depression really bad again. The very next week I had a doctor appointment and they told me that they didn't know what was causing the seizures I've been having, when they originally thought it to be my lupus causing it. They told me they don't suggest I do much driving, just do the bare minimum, which means to and from school. They don't know how things are going to turn out still and things with my health seem to keep getting worse.

At school I've been having issues with teachers harassing me about what has been going on with my family and my health. I don't care for everyone I go to school with to know my personal business. Also, I've had a lot of the other students harassing me as well, which makes things really difficult.

I have been having to deal with this alone here lately, because my parents are constantly busy with work and no one is around. Not to mention the fact that I'm stuck either at home or at school, not exactly where I want to be.

I feel like I've been abandoned. I'm alone and hurting, not sure what to do really. I have been really struggling with the depression and I just don't know what to do. I pray all the time and I read my Bible, I just don't know. It feels like my prayers aren't being heard.

Does anybody have any suggestions or advice?

Rylee, first of all I AM SO SO SO SORRY that you are just getting replied to!

Sister, you are dealing with a lot right now. Life can be overwhelming at times and right now you are in one of those times. It's kinda like watching a movie... all the events are happening so fast around you, while you are stuck in slow motion. I'm praying for you as I type!

God, I lift sweet Rylee up to you. Hold her in your loving arms. Take the pain she feels inside away. Give her your strength to go on at school and at home! Father, hear her battle cry! Thank you for giving us this avenue of prayer. Thank you for Jesus who intercedes! In His precious name, Amen!

Psalms 147:3 He heals the broken heartened, binding up their wounds.

Matthew 5:4 Blessed are those that mourn, for they shall be comforted.

Psalm 46:1 God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in times of trouble.

I hope these scriptures encourage you and give you peace! Know sweet one that God is with you even when you can't see or feel Him! Most of the time I think that's when He is actually carrying you through the storm.

Much love and Blessings to you!

Raving about Him,
Janna Beth

Thank you. I appreciate it. I just got some news to add to everything else I've been dealing with here lately, I just got told I have an issue with my heart which they say is genetic and I was born with it...apparently I have a leak in the aortic/main heart valve...they said it shouldn't cause any problems for now, but over time it may develope into one. Things have been so crazy with the ups and downs...I've had a lot happen here lately that I really really wish hadn't. I appreciate any advice anyone could possibly give me, and the prayers are so helpful I can't even tell you how thankful I am for them.

Precious, Rylee, I am so sorry for the pain you have been going through. I can't imagine having to deal with everything you've got going on and then be told something is wrong with your heart... I guess it's good news that there are no problems for now!! We all take so many things for granted. Maybe this can help you to focus on taking one day at a time and really making each day your master piece! The only advice I can think of is to continue to take your burdens to Him. He is the only one who can carry you through. I will continue to lift you up to the Father!

Rylee,

I am so incredibly sorry that all this is happening to you. I can't imagine what you are going through and the stress that has been placed upon you. I don't want to pretend like I know exactly how you are feeling, nor do I want to pretend like I have all the answers. Because let's face it. I DON'T. But, I know someone who does...we both do. Girl, I know that sometimes it may be hard to take things to God because you may feel like He has abandoned you or let all these bad things happen to you. I want to remind you right now that He HAS NOT left you. Check out Deuteronomy 31:6 really quickly. Now, the verse reminds us to be strong and courageous, but it doesn't say we have to do that on our own. God GOES WITH US. I heard a quote from my pastor at church once that said, "God is most powerfully present even when He seems most apparently absent." That statement holds so much truth. He is still powerfully working in your life. Maybe these things are happening so that you learn to TRUST Him more (I know I need to trust more), or maybe someone else later in your life is going to be going through similar situations, and God is preparing you to be able to reach out to them and help them though because you know what they are going through. I know that right now, everything may seem unfair and like God did you wrong, but I PROMISE YOU that everything happens for a reason. I'm sure you have heard that 1,000 times, but really let that sink in. If God is in control and loves you more than anything and cares for you and wants THE BEST for you, why would He let something happen to hurt you? It may seem like He is hurting you right now, but I promise you that He is preparing you for something else, asking you to trust Him more, pleading with you to lean on Him in times of trouble, or something else that you might not know until later on in life. This season in your life is here for a reason, but good news is that it is just a season. Soon, another season will come and take its place. Don't forget that God will never leave you or forsake you. EVER. He is there for you NO MATTER WHAT, and I promise you that all of this is for a reason. God may not seem present, but it may be because He is carrying you through all of this. Read the poem "Footsteps in the Sand." I think you would really relate and might understand God a little better. (Google it) Know that you have prayer warriors behind you, and nothing is too big for God to handle. In His time. And by His ways. Give it all to Him and let Him take control. I promise He will do a better job than we ever can.

Our God and Father, thank you so much for sweet Rylee. She is such a precious child to you, and I can see her love for you and her desire to see you in these situations she has been in recently. Teach her to trust you in everything. Remind her that you are the most powerfully present even though you seem the most apparently absent. Give her people to turn to that will remind her that YOU are in control and that YOU love her very much. Reveal yourself to her in powerful ways. Show her more of you. Help her to fall more in love with you because of her situation than ever before. Help her to know that you will always take care of her. Always. I ask that you place a hand of comfort and peace upon her. Fill her with your Holy Spirit and work wonders in her heart. In your Son's most precious name I ask all these things, Amen.

I am praying for you sweet girl. If there is anything you need, please let me know. I love you with the love of the Lord!

I am really sorry about what you are you are going through. You need to trust in God and never forget that he will always be with you.